Dear Anita

There were many instances, I am sure, when she expressed to you that people are not to be trusted and that they deserve your low opinion of them, and you absorbed what she expressed to you, youre right she did it multiple times and tried to separate me from others but in some ways i did feel separated and like an outsider myself because in my mind nobody had a problem similar to me and nobody could understand me , i mean having a mom with terminal cancer and i said i was surrounded with kind of people not because i believe im above everybody but because i think im not  confident enough to socialize with more successful people who know what they want , i feel intimidated by them , because being surrounded with losers gave me this security that im better than some people and if they did something bad to me , i would say , it`s because of jealousy or pettiness .

i dont judge the value of a human by their success as much as my parents , i HOPE  but some people can lift you up in life just you can make an example of them or give you some good advice and they are strong enough to be with you when you need  at least they dont drag you down but i was surrounded by people who wanted to drag me down  i did alot of stuff they couldnt handle , you remember i told you they werent very happy that i wasnt broken completely ?i dont want to be surrounded by these kind of people obviously .

She wanted you separated, isolated and alone outside of the family as well by instilling.. and what was her reason do you think ?

Farnaz