Now, this is something I would do if I were alone, however, my family always denies it’s happening and comments on my mental health, in effect, calling me crazy when I point it out, and being financially dependent on them, this does not help my situation. Otherwise, it would be an excellent solution, for now, until I have an income and my own transportation, I’ve found it best to simply minimize the frequency with which I leave the house. Not in an agoraphobic way, merely as the most efficient way to deal with the problem at this time.

I have mixed feelings on porn, without it, I would lack any significant outlet for my sexuality which could make me desperate enough to tolerate an unhealthy relationship just for access to sexual stimulation. Although, due to exploitation in the porn industry, I wish to switch to drawn and animated porn, which (probably) does not involve nearly as much exploitation. As it is, I’m glad it exists, just as I’m thankful psychiatric medication, alcohol, and cannabis exist, I just need to regulate and reduce the harm these things can cause in my life, in my opinion. For me, it’s not porn itself that is the main problem here, but the types of messaging in the type I’ve been consuming. I think the solution here is to take drawn and animated porn and compile it myself into a similar, yet less harmful type of video.

I will say it has had both good and bad effects in my life. Without it, I would feel like my sexuality was even less acceptable. Yet, it can also sometimes be a problem. With things like this, I favor a harm reduction approach that minimizes the negatives and maximizes the positives, which is why I’m looking toward compiling my own videos, so I can experience the potential benefits, without supporting exploitation or experiencing negative messaging from social attitudes expressed in what I have been watching.