Hi Peter,

you are very welcome. Dr. Tori Olds is a valuable find indeed. I was amazed and grateful for her videos, they just resonate so much.

Anyway when that hope arises I wonder if I’m asking if ‘I’ care and love ‘me’ in the moment when the thought arises.

Yeah, I know, that’s the real question…

When Jung was asked the question if he believed in G_d (G_d-Christ – Brahman-Atman – capital S -Self) he replied that he did not believe because he knew. He was highly criticized for that answer and he didn’t explain himself as far as I know.

That’s interesting, didn’t know that about Jung. I have to say, I also “know”, kind of. Because I had the experience of the capital S Self. But sometimes, when I am struggling (specially with my health recently) I start doubting… not in the existence of God, but whether he/she/it cares. I think in those moments of suffering I get disconnected from the Self, and slip into fear and doubt. But then I process through my pain and find renewed hope. I get re-connected to the Self, at least for a while, until some other fear creeps in…

Now when I think about it, it’s like dropping off the line and getting reconnected again multiple times a day, some days with longer and some days with shorter duration 🙂