Hi Roberta

Thanks

I have downloaded a sample on Kindle and it is good reading so far. We have a kid now, eleven months old and my wife is busy taking care of him. She has also gone through a bad marriage and is from a humble financial background. I mention that because she still adheres to simple living without spending too much. That, I guess is her spirituality. I rely on her a lot.

Yes, your advice helped me. Centering myself. I actually used to look for a place within the physical body to center myself in. Having read about words like heart chakra, dantian and the like. But i now center myself intuitively in the center which is more peaceful. Can’t describe it. Happened in the evening just an hour back. Of course, it’s not the end of my suffering, but definitely makes me more carefree.

Thank you so much. And I will update more as time goes by. I wish you well in your life and I am sure your genuine yearning to help others will reduce the burden of many people.

In addition, I should say, being in my family community, it is difficult to practice Buddhism because you have many ignorant people telling you things like Buddhism is a misleading religion and the like. It’s all hokum, no doubt what they say, but being deprived of a group which practices Buddhism assiduously does hamper progress.

Anyway, I wish you all the best in your career as well.
<p style=”text-align: center;”>Regards</p>

Hi Sarah
<p style=”text-align: left;”>Yes, I forgot to mention,  I have a kid now, eleven months old. And so, physical intimacy is somewhat off the table. We got married about 2 years back during the pandemic and the anxiety related to it was there. We don’t really have problems. It’s just me who gets paranoid time to time. I do not have financial difficulties. My only goal is to do something good. I am donating to some charities from the office account.</p>
<p style=”text-align: left;”>I am not saying I have lots of money, but I have more than enough. The problem is, it is a family business and my father is not fain to encourage me in this. There is this plot of land I own and I intend to give it to my wife’s family because they are in need though they don’t show it. I am going ahead with this without my father’s approval. But it is causing a lot of discomfort in both our families. Add to it some miserly friends of his who give advice that are too worldly. One guy said, ‘Why don’t you wait for 8 to 10 years, the prices there are soaring. We can make a good profit. ‘And he’s 61.</p>
Looks like I am mixing everything up. But thanks for reading.

<p style=”text-align: left;”>Yes Sarah</p>
Yes, the separate room thing happens only when I am back from visiting friends after a few drinks. About once a month. Yes, we talk a lot and we have a deep connect. Whenever I am worried, she actually calls. Some intuition at work perhaps. We do have a travel itenary. There is a forest nearby where we rent a hut and stay for a couple of days.

She does support me in my meditation. She knows I won’t become a monk and run away or something. Especially, after I read this line about Zen to her.

‘Looking for Bodhi outside of everyday life is like brushing aside waves looking for water’

– Dogen ( I think)

I saw your qualification and I was wondering whether you believe in karma. I speak to people and I have learnt Reiki/Pranuc healing. But people say you end up taking their bad karma. I am not worried about that. But psychologically speaking, how do such things affect a person and it’s impact on the world at large especially because people with a healing disposition would be impeded.

Regards

Satya

Yes Sarah. Reiki, I still have doubts about it being used for a positive influence. Reiki sometimes can be uncontrollable and so I decided to stick to Vipassana. Simple reason. I put effort and I am actually doing something rather than invoke some energies. But reiki also can get into bad hands too, though I haven’t seen anything of that sort.

I love people, but I am coming to loathe humanity in general for what they do. These days when a person dies, I have seen instances where the relatives do not let the body be taken for the funeral until his property and money are distributed among his relatives. And such instances are increasing. Just a couple of days ago, I was witness to it. In such a world, you are actually forgiven for ‘defying’ a Buddhist view.

Personally, i think a set of beliefs is needed.

About your energy warping, I have heard about that too. I think you have some stable quality in you that made you realise and take necessary steps. So that ought to make you feel a lot better.

In place of reiki I use hand ‘mudras’. These mudras, in about a month’s duration of practice helped me get my bearings right. There are many of them, primarily water, earth, air and .’shunya’ which I use. So, it’s practically in your hands.

Regards

Satya