Hey Anita.. I did practice what you said. I tried to deal it with empathy because i will still have resentment towards her forever. I believe my friend is still a good human and she cares about me. She came to airport to pick us, cooked breakfast and lunch on the day we landed. She still cares about me. Its just the way to we use to hang out has changed. My anxiety has calmed a bit. I want to forgive her for my own peace of mind. She is going through  alot already. She has financial and health issues. I was doing ok during the day. But at night my brain started fighting again like how my friend treats me, she is taking advantage of me. I had these racing thoughts and headache. I dont know why I want to forgive her and move on. But my brain is trying to tell me she is hurting by enjoying with other group.