Dear Anita,

The only disadvantage is that ever since I stopped, I rarely sleep throughout the night, it feels like a miracle when I do.

Have you tried sleep aids like Ashwagandha, or Melatonin?

I am glad that your D.L was not suspended because no one was hurt and it’s feels good to be trusted, doesn’t it?

It is common knowledge that the transport departments standards to return to driving was destroying lives, especially when 90% of people need to drive just to go about daily living. the health system unofficially considers each patient on a case by case basis. Everything in life should be done on a case by case basis, but power and greed stop it from happening.

I am thinking about cancelling the brain scan (yet to be made) appointment. Because let’s say an artery in my brain is somewhat blocked or twisted: what can be done about it other than brain surgery..

My mother has had a benign brain tumour for decades, nobody has needed to do anything about it. If you get the scan you will at least be in control of what is going on, knowledge is power, and you can reject any recommendations they might make. They may not even need to do invasive surgery. You sound like my wife, she’d prefer to tough it out, than go through any unknown procedures or drugs. Mainly because she feels she wouldn’t be knowledgeable or emotionally strong enough to resist other peoples opinions on what she should do, “What if they are right?”. Lack of self worth.

I hope that you can tell me more about finding your center means to you.

Che sera sera “What will be, will be”. Worrying about something outside anyone’s control, like most others do in my situation; “My life will never be the same”, “My partner will reject me”, “what if _______”, is bad for metal health which is in turn bad for physical health. If others reject you for the situation you are in, they were never worthy of you in the first place.
Most people in my situation end up splitting from their partner because they start putting up emotional walls that push the partner away. “I am no-longer good enough for them, I am not who they thought I was, I have betrayed them” etc. I was aware of this so I made sure I didn’t. To this day we are over 20 years strong.

I remember now: I too used to think of it as an additional dimension, a dimension that cannot be measured. How do animals tap into it..?

Animals know stuff about the world around us that we cant explain, yet. Evacuating the area before natural disasters. Then theres brain syncing just by looking at each other, humans do it all the time too, when interacting and when it feels like your being watched.

https://www.sciencealert.com/dogs-brains-sync-with-ours-when-we-gaze-into-their-eyes-study-finds

Living on a hobby farm I see animals out of range from each other reacting to each others intentions.
One of my dogs used to start banging on the back door in the morning, because I had just woken up in bed and hadn’t said anything to anyone about going for a walk to the beach, but somehow he knew. Another time I was patting two of our cows and while patting them I visualised a bolt gun at a meat works, immediately they both jumped away from me. Then there’s all the stuff about twins and close relatives I said earlier.

makes it possible for me to think in an orderly way/ to process information.

I’m glad to help, life has been getting busy recently. I’ve been reading about Erik Erikson’s theory of psychosocial development, he was a peer of Freud and Jung.
https://www.simplypsychology.org/erik-erikson.html
I am struggling at stage seven, trying to get out of stagnation and enter generativity. You, my wife and my therapist are helping me in small baby steps to leave stagnation behind and become more generative (helping others, contributing to society and the next generation). Stuff my life long traumas have restricted me from doing so far. Turning my issues and knowledge into wisdom to help others.
My therapist doesn’t want to see me for a month now, which is good. He basically confirms my conclusions then adds more, or challenges me to think past my blockages.

Klast