Hello Kevin 🙂
It’s as if the habit has taken a life of its own, independent from your ability to choose. At first, you chose to focus on your breathing, but now, you can’t unchoose it.
I wonder if the concept of Radical Acceptance can be useful to you: to totally, completely accept what you can not change. To no longer resist what will not respond to your choosing.
It makes me think of my tics (Tourette’s). For so very long I chose to no longer tic, tried hard, but it was futile. In fact, I think that trying to not tic, made them more intense and more frequent.
Interestingly, it never ocurred to me to apply Radical Acceptance to my own tics until just now, while answering your thread.
* Tics are automatic neurochemical habits.. but so is the automatic focusing on breathing.
What do you think, Kevin?
🤔 Anita
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