Hi Emotional Wreck

I am sorry for the way you feel. I am not sure if my perspective on this issue will help you at this stage but I will make an attempt.

First of all, you are not alone, who has a dysfunctional family. There are many children out there who are going through similar problems as yourself, which is unfortunate but a real fact of life. So instead of feeling like a victim, we need to become in control of the situation, ie, change the mentality of “why me, what that” to “how can I make things better for myself”. Some suggestions below:

1. Accept that you have a dysfunctional family and may continue to have one for as long as you live. You can’t control your parents behaviour. However, you can control yours. By wanting to have a loving family, you are putting unnecessary pressure on yourself as the situation is out of your control.

2. Pls do whatever it takes but move out of the house. When we are surrounded by negativity or negative energy, it is hard to stay positive or bring about a lasting positive change in self. You wont be able to become compassionate in that house with that sort of negativity around even if you do meditation 24 hours a day. Energy flows from high to low. When people are vibrating at predominantly negative energy, their energy engulfs everything on the way unless you stand tall against that negativity. For that, you need to be more positive than what you are currently.

3. Fungal infections are opportunistic infections and it highlights that you are killing your soul every minute. You are doing things against your will. Stop it. You are way more worth than how you are treating yourself.

4. Once you have raised your positivity and compassion index to such a high level that your parents negativity does not cause any effect on you, you will be able to love them from your higher self. They will then definitely change for the better as they will be able to feel your positivity and unconditional love.

5. I dont have an answer as to why your parents are the way they are but what I can tell is one thing from my experience: unconditional love can lead to miracles. Unconditional love comes about only when we are able to accept for who we are, forgive our own self for the pain that we have caused knowingly or unknowingly. When we accept, love and forgive self, only then can we love anyone else. Do you know what I mean ? Think over these lines for a few mins.

6. I can recommend a book that may assist you in getting your life back to where it should be. Feel the fear and do it anyway by Susan Jeffers. Start with the last 2 chapters and if they resonate with you, you can read the first 10 chapters for tools to use to begin your journey of self care and nurture.

7. Pls forgive your parents for all the pain, hurt and judgments. They do not know any better otherwise they wouldn’t be doing this to you. BUT, you do know better as you wouldn’t have asked for help otherwise.

8. Pls change your alias from emotional wreck to emotionally sound or something more positive. Learn to vibrate at higher frequencies of positivity.

Sending you loads of positive energy and you will be in my prayers tonight.

Jasmine