Hello,

thank you everyone for all your advice. But I decided to follow my heart. I am going to visit Amsterdam for a month. I feel that it is my home. I strongly feel it, and I want to feel it again. and its not for him, its for me. I want to fulfill it. I spoke to my bestfriend, and she pushed me to do it. She says I am only young once, and I will may never have this opportunity. I book my ticket, and I will be seeing my European friends, and I will also be meeting him too when I arrive. I have mentioned it to him. So, its all or nothing. But I will have no regrets towards it.