Hello people! I’m home again,i was on vacation for the last one week and yesterday i came back home.
I saw things at his facebook profile which made me sad,a lot of different emotions that made me unhappy.
Today i deleted all my accounts on the internet,except here and my main e-mail.I deleted facebook,google plus-youtube,
i also had an account to a forum in which my ex has also account (but he don’t know that i also have) i didn’t delete it cause i don’t log in to this.And never mind…
I hope that this is the big step for my to find happiness.All that stuff,….internet,TV, make me feel anxious,bad for myself etc.
For example TV always make me feel anxious about my life,make my problems bigger, I don’t also like the lifestyle that passes through my life. Internet especially facebook make feel jealous of what other’s people lifes are, (and i know there’s nothing special in other’s people lifes that mine doesn’t have)
On youtube i usually watch beauty gurus and stuff, especially ‘how to make this look appropriate for night, makeup ,hair, and all these things.Finally youtube doesn’t give me advices or tricks or how to’s,because many youtubers nowdays want to ‘sell’ products or show what they bought (makeup hauls..etc) and this is not the essence of what youtube can teach me.It’s useless for me because everytime i see a beauty video I want to buy all of these products i don’t need and this make me materialistic..I don’t need all these to make me happy.Happiness is inside,and today i see people who chase money.I don’t want to be like this.I want to be happy with little things in my life.Ok,makeup ,do make me feel good about myself but if there isn’t self-confidence without it,it’s a problem.
Anyways,for these big reasons (for me) I deleted all that stuff.I’m a little bit afraid of dissafection,being alone,cause all my friends are in there,but i don’t want to live in this world.I think that facebook is inauthentic,false,dishonest!
People pretend everyday that they’re another person in order to be liked.I want authenticity in my life and internet destroyed me,i found and false person (ex) on the net etc etc.
All i want is to focus in my studies,reading all kinds of books each day even if they don’t have to do with my future job.
Im impatient for the best things to come, but i don’t mind ,i want to live this way!
Τhe reason behind this , is that today me & my family (brother and sister) have had an argue and they told me that i’m duplicitous,bad,that I judge everyone behind their backs etc etc.I refused all these but I don’t want them to influence my life.I prefer not to talk to them for a time.maybe 2 or three weeks ,i don’t know, but they make me feel bad and maybe every conversation leads to an argue!!!

Thanks for reading .Best wishes.