Jonathan, I couldn’t help but smile thinking of you smiling at someone else when you are feeling a little sad. That is inspiring. It means you have a sweet and kind spirit. I think expectations of where we should be in life is a joy killer. We aren’t all the same. We all don’t need to be a certain place or have certain things by a certain age. You mentioned freedom and independence and I just want to say that having your license and driving a car can give you autonomy but it can also be very isolating. With your grandmother driving you, you have time with her, which may not seem important right now, but as someone who lost her grandmother, I would give anything for one more car ride with my grandmother. People who drive feel the same as you do too. They feel sad and despondent and like they aren’t living up to potential. I always think that as long as we are living with intention to be kind and productive, giving smiles and being warm, we are succeeding. Life is short. No one says I wish I had made more money at the end of their life. They say I wish I had enjoyed the everyday little things more. You are doing just fine. You sound like a really wonderful person.