My ex girlfriend broke up with me back in June. Basically she found old dating apps on my phone that I either never went on and forgot they were there or they were viruses that appeared when I turned my phone on or off. The one real one was hot or not and I never even talked to anyone on it and the virus was meetme I clicked on that infromt of her and it went on the Internet and said download it now. One of the reasons I forgot they were there was that I had bad OCD and would get anxiety if I went on those pages so I never did and truthfully forgot about them. She didn’t believe me. During it the most threatening or mean thing I said was maybe I should hurt myself but said I was sorry right after. I also said I couldn’t eat or sleep I was so sad. We were with each other and said nice things for more days after that. A week After the break up I made a fake Facebook account that she probably knew was me so she so she added my real one back but ended up blocking both. I erased the fake one.
Another mistake I made was 2 weeks after I went to a bar with a friend and added 3 girls on Facebook because my friend told me to . she saw this and blocked my account and dropped off everything I gave her. We even became friends for a week after. Then I sent her another big text to try and get back with her . She said don’t text me. But then we snap chatted for about a week almost as if talking to each other. Then the last text so far from my phone was August 9 I sent her a nice happy birthday and she talked nice the whole day but the next morning I sent a very nice good morning and she got mad and said I was talking to other girls on snapchat . She was second friend because she didn’t talk to me anymore and I just got random hellos from people. I got mad and said she hurt me to so I should block her. But she knew other ways to contact me and that I love her. She replied with FU and blocked my phone and Facebook. A week later I sent a small text from my friends phone but I didn’t get to say everything I wanted to. A week after that I dropped off a gift I got her earlier that she returned on her street in front of her house but not on her property.
Earlier in November I went on meetme that I just downloaded for the first time because that was the virus one she got mad at ,to try and move one because everybody was telling me to and saw her on it . I didn’t try talking to her I just clicked on her profile then she blocked mine.

Basically because im scared of her mom I called a lawyer about this and he said the whole meetme thing reset time in the lawys eyes so January should be fine but if she gets a mean cop they might be able to do something. So he said probably by like may I should be clear to send it. And for now if I dont send it until then I should try to get someone to talk to her and ask her if she is willing to hear an apology. Also I talked to him about the letter itself and this is the new one . He shortened it alot so it didn’t say hurt or threaten or remind her of any bad things. What do you think does it still have the same effect without going into details?

Hi this Sean

I still feel bad about how things ended between us and feel like I never got the chance to formally apologize to you. I flew over 18 mile creek lately and thought about how fun it was to go hiking there and every else with you.

I was very immature back then. I should have been more aware of what was on my phone and erased those apps when we got into our relationship. I now know I should have just listened to my heart after the break up and not what others said to do. As you know you were my first love so I didn’t know how to handle the situation. Even though I tried to move on I would just think of you. I have matured since and have realized how childish I acted. I should have known how treasure and respect you better back then. I have now learned how to handle future relationships. I’m apologizing from the bottom of my heart .

You have shown me many possibilities in life and shown me many great things. You have made me smile ,very happy and above all you have made me love you and that’s what life is. I will never forget this.

I know this is a lot to ask of you given what has happened between us, but I would like you to think about possibly talking sometime. maybe at white rabbit because I know you like that place a lot and catch up a bit. I really enjoyed going places like that to eat with you especially when we sat our own way. Theres a lot of new and exciting things happening in my life and I would like to share the exciting news with you. I’m very interested to listen to anything you would like to say and would like to hear what you have been up to lately.
I understand if you do not want to meet or talk and will not bother you again .this will be my farewell if that’s the case. I hope that your having fun at school the pictures you used to show me of it looked awesome. It must be really fun being able to ride your new bike there. That sounds like it would be an amazing time with you.

I do wish you the best in life and I thank you for all the fun times we had