Mefisto –

I have to agree with Rosey, but everyone has a right to their own opinion.
Drugs just make no sense to me.
We’re not ill mentally because we’re lacking anti-d’s, so they’re not the answer.
Make a decision based on your experiences and beliefs. Do what feels right to you.

While I can appear extroverted in my videos (and in real life, at times), that is just one side to me.
Also, I usually have a lot of out-takes on my videos because 80% of the time, I have brain-fog and headaches and struggle to get my words flowing. It’s a good reminder not to judge based on one viewpoint. But thank you for the kind words anyway…

A way to feel less lonely instantly is to realise that you are just like me.
I am just like you …
And we are all the same, on many levels.
People may have different morals and beliefs. Some people are horrible; sick and self-centered. Careless…

But, deep down, they’re going through pretty identical things to you – relationships, money, career, fear, etc.
And maybe their life is actually going pretty great right now… but that doesn’t mean it will always be the case.
It’s very unlikely they will make it through this life unscathed. Everyone has their own shit. Some have it way harder than us.
They don’t even have a chance. But you do…

While your picture of Russia is grim and undoubtedly accurate, my blessed childhood couldn’t protect me from depression and other problems. Depression can affect anybody.
Mine all started with acne and a medication I took subsequently.
Sure, our stories are different… BUT, on the whole – we’re going through the same thing.
I get depressed just like you do… and just like a massive amount of people do.
I’ve been hurt and betrayed just like you have.
We feel the same emotions and have similar thoughts.
So remember that you are far from the only one dealing with this.
Don’t take it personally. Take your ego out of it, and realise you’re just 1 in 7 billion.
The world would carry on if either of us took our own lives.
But it would be the end for us.
My point is – Time is precious, and everything lacks certainty. Tomorrow isn’t a promise and so we need to get past our life stories and create better ones that help us, rather than stories that keep us fixated on what is wrong with life.
A certain amount of what happens to us is going to create a reaction.
You can’t just not care about things like being screwed over.
But, you have the choice to let it make you or break you, as I’ve said already…

You’re definitely not ready for a relationship, because you’ve got a tonne of work to do.
Albeit, I have problems that are ongoing with no clear end in sight, I did a lot of self-work before I got into a relationship with my present girlfriend.
But I made some mistakes like you might.
I spent a random night with some university students at a house party.
I was trying to hook up with a girl who had invited me there, but she was into another guy.
I ended up feeling shitty and the alcohol made me super depressed.
I was trying to escape my feelings at the time, because I just wanted my old life back.
I was unwilling to accept reality and part of me was stupid enough to WANT my old relationship back, even though it was a mess throughout.

It sounds like you’re comparing girls to what you believe your ex was.
I think you’re doing this based on looks from your wording.
I’ve done this too, and it’s not helpful. People are different and you will not have someone like your ex.
That’s a good thing. But everyone is afraid of change.
Hence why so many people stay in situations that don’t serve them.

You saying you’re not capable of attracting girls who are better than your ex is just an opinion you’ve formed.
Plus, your ex sounds like a real bitch, so I bet you can do better.
But, putting it straight, you’re a mess right now.
No girl would want to get into a relationship with someone who has so much work to do, and it would be unfair to put all your problems onto someone you don’t know yet. You are only 22 and one day you’ll most likely be married, so don’t feel like you need to rush into another relationship just because your ex did so. It’s a sign of weakness, so don’t envy it.
So many people cheat just because they’re cowardly and can’t stand the thought of having nobody.
So they hurt who they like, as long as they’re okay in the end.

Quit looking for a quick fix and face up to this.
You have to allow yourself to FEEL what you’re going through, in order to come through to the other side.
Some feelings can never be fully resolved, but you have to do what you can.

I guessed your situation pretty accurate, because the way you spoke reminded me of myself.
I quit a job just over 2 weeks ago, and it looks like I’ll have no other choice but to take another lame one for the time being, due to money and other pressures. But that doesn’t have to mean the end of the world, and these things take time.
But we have to continually move forward and see that it’s possible to do the things we want to do.
The animal abuse thing has been big for me, and I still need to distance myself from it.
I want to be able to help reduce abuse, but when I see a video online… it just leaves me furious and helpless.
It does the animals no good for me to feel bad. They are dead now. And I can’t get my hands on the sick prick that hurt them.
I can only hope that this life has some meaning and that they will pay for their actions later.

We have to focus on what we can do and change.
You can’t change what’s already happened to you.
But you can learn from it.
Maybe you learned some things from the relationship, about yourself and the way you need to be in a duo.
Relationships aren’t always easy.
At times, you’ll wonder why you’re in one. Adding two people’s problems together can be dangerous.
But that’s mainly because everyone gets stressed out and takes out their frustrations on the ones they really care about.

We will always make mistakes, but that’s okay. We have to in order to get better.
And, at 22… you have plenty of time to learn from yours, and to grow.
You’ll be okay, but you have to do what it takes to get there.
And you don’t need me or any other stranger to reassure what you already realise yourself.
TRUST YOURSELF!

Much love x