Changing my environment for healing

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January 14, 2015 at 11:54 am #71318

Voice-of-Grace
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Greetings, I am new. I’ve recently been in intensive treatment for severe depression, and noticed that the groups etc dragged my energy down. I tried some forums of people going through the similar things and found it was dragging me down.

This episode was preceded by a chorus of critics and no voice of grace. I have a found a voice of grace in my meditations, and it is so nice to have that Voice of Grace, the light in the dark night of the soul. My meditations (not Buddhist strictly) have loosened up a lot of stuff to release and I feel lighter for it. I have not been meditating for a long time, so taking it up has been lightening. I feel now that only I can raise myself out of the depression, that the MH machine can no longer do it, although I continue with treatment and therapy.

I came across this site through the grace of Google and the articles are short and sweet, the forum seemed focused on being where I want to be, and the direction I feel that I am heading, not on where I have been.

So I took a username of the thing I need, on a site with a higher vibration, with the thought that names have power and vibration, and so to name a thing is to manifest it so.

I have finally hope.

January 14, 2015 at 3:31 pm #71363

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Voice of Grace it sounds like you have finally found something positive and useful and I am guessing that you are feeling more upbeat than you have in awhile. I am happy for you. I too am new to the group…this is my first time replying in fact. It’s funny how we always feel so alone in our suffering, jealous of everyone else who appear to be going on just fine in their happy lives. I was grateful to find this site because it brings honesty to the human experience, to talk about the things that bother us, or the things we are working hard to learn and accept.

So, I guess all I really wanted to say is “Good luck to both of us!” 🙂

January 16, 2015 at 5:37 am #71434

Inky
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Hi Voice of Grace,

Welcome!! And Welcome to you too Klara!

Yes, changing our environments can be the ultimate act of rebellion!

To Self Care!!

Congrats!!

Inky 🙂

January 16, 2015 at 9:54 pm #71455

Dori
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Hello voice of grace! Reading this has been a breath of fresh air. I was searching for something that could make me feel less guilty for the strong feeling to change where I am to finish healing. For once I want to hear my own voice and follow my intuition without doubting and turning to others for validation.

January 16, 2015 at 10:48 pm #71456

Voice-of-Grace
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Yes, if you have a strong intuition that this is the way to go, that’s great. You may want to just kind of ask yourself (as if you are having tea with yourself) is this for my highest good? If it’s yes, your path is clear.

I am glad that just my little post has been what others need as well. Myself, I have just been sitting with this, and have been successful in pushing aside some persistent negative thinking. I missed meditation yesterday and there was some low vibrations to get through in meditation today. I am meditating about an hour or more per sitting, which is just amazing for me.

VOG

January 16, 2015 at 11:00 pm #71458

Dori
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Voice of grace that is amazing ! my meditation time stops at 15mins. I’ve been hesitating from meditating recently because I think I’m afraid of trying to feel and get better and failing. But the funny part about that is never trying also gives me the same results as my fears. I am so insightful and spiritual, but the negativity has been convincing me other wise.

January 16, 2015 at 11:16 pm #71462
Voice-of-Grace
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I do have a history with meditation, and so it’s not unfamiliar to me. I have been dealing with some things in meditation….I try to stay until things feel more settled and calm. Think of the meditation as the end in and of itself. Everything else will follow. Although I have to admit, I was brought back to meditation by an article about a study that shows that meditation and yoga change the very structure of the brain, decreasing the amygdala and increasing the hippocampus, which are respectively increased and decreased by depression/anxiety (negativity). So my goal is literally to change my brain. One neuron at a time if I have to. It has the added bonus of smoothing things out and calming them down.

I like that you are owning the insight and spirituality, but trying to dispossess the negativity. The negativity is not in our best interest, and we can control how much it manifests. I mentioned yesterday, I was thinking about going back to work and how vulnerable I feel being on leave and then going back and how “they” probably hate me and think I should just eat worms (not really, but remember the song??). It started to get to me, but I was able to accept it and turn away if that makes sense. Part of it was also saying to myself…if that happened, it would not be so bad. Been there, done that. Can do it again, and way better this time.

Anyway, I am not an expert by any means, but it has my focus at the moment.
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January 16, 2015 at 11:24 pm #71463

Dori
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I project my thoughts on others as well! I usually do that if I drop out of an obligation and feel guilty for not following through. But I always remind myself that I am my priority and I can’t make everyone happy. Sitting still in life feels guilty at times for myself because it seems as if everyone around me is moving and improving. But I discredit the art of reflect and that not all progress can be seen. You stating the science behind meditation makes me want to put more effort into it! Thank you for your positive vibrations 🙂

January 16, 2015 at 11:26 pm #71465

Voice-of-Grace
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Maybe moving, but maybe not improving. It seems to me that many people keep moving to avoid self-examination.

Take the road less traveled!

January 16, 2015 at 11:33 pm #71466

Dori
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I definitely will, thank you!
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