Dear Sophia:
In your decision making you have to take into consideration your history with anxiety and depression. There is the logical side of decision making: what is the right decision for a person- any person to make and then there is the right decision for Sophia to make? A decision custom made for YOU. You stated you hate the city with a passion. For A person (who I don’t know, some person in the world), it could be an opportunity to look at the city from a Beginner’s Mind: to abandon old judgments and look at it as if you are looking at it again for the first time, notice new things instead of using the filters of the first time. See things you didn’t see before,a dn see the same things you saw before in a different way. Can you do that or interested in doing that? Can you do that with the anxiety of old?

My first inclination is to suggest you turn down the job (someone will be happy to be contacted about it after being told it is taken…?) and go back to where you were happier (but where you happy there..?)

One thing I am sure of: making choices when feeling distressed is not the right time to do so: you must get to a state of CALM if you can and not rush yourself. Be calm- somehow get to that state of mind, calm- clear the fog of confusion that is stirred by distress, anxiety. Think when you are calm. Let the part of you that KNOWS what you should do- speak to you. You can hear that voice, I hope, in the absence of the distracting NOISE of anxiety, distress.

Take care:
anita