Hi Jenny,

Thank you for telling me that. She said something similar to me the last night we were together, and as much as it hurt to hear it was still coming from a place of love which was comforting.

By the end of last night I was feeling pretty confident about moving forward… until right around midnight when she reached out to me. At first I saw that she sent me a game invite to the app we used to play almost nightly together for six months. I ignored that even though it took me for a spin for a moment. Then about an hour and a half later a facebook message came. It was a string of about four messages. The first one was just a random emoji, an accident I guess, because the three that followed were her saying she didn’t mean to send it and was trying to figure out how to delete it. I told myself it was better to not respond and proceeded to go to bed.

Now I have two things to ignore and it definitely hurts to do it. I don’t think she’s trying to do anything more than reach out and check on me, maybe trying to be friendly and keep me in her life, but nothing more. I know she has to be hurting.. and like I said this is the longest we have ever gone without communicating. I feel that all I can do is just leave it alone since both attempts were kind of harmless – and one might have actually been a mistake if she was just reading through our old message conversations or something.

I slept okay, but I know I’ll feel strange about it all day.
Any advice and support would certainly help.
Thanks.