Hi Max,

First off, I just wanted to say how brave you are for taking that step of no contact and sticking to it. When my ex broke up with me, I also insisted on a no contact clause so I know how tough it is to go through what you are experiencing. The what ifs, the could have been and the absences of that intimacy that we once shared can drive a man insane.

It sounds like you are doing all the right things to keep yourself occupied and if there is one thing that I can add is to give your emotions a chance to grieve. As a male, I certainly find that it’s a difficult thing to do because it’s not really seen as a masculine thing to moan about our losses and cry. The thing is, you have just lost someone close so rather than suppressing your emotions or try not to think about it, allocate some time for yourself where you can have a good cry. When we repress our emotions, they tend to sneak up on us at the worst possible moments.

If that’s the path you choose to go down, I find listening to music and watching sad movies helps to let out the feels.