Adult Anita (AA): Little Girl Anita (LGA) 👧 you are safe with me. I am on your side, always. I love you, always 🤍🤍🤍.

You were quiet 🤫 for so long, hiding in a fog, trapped in no-life.

I want to hear you. I want you to speak to me, to make your voice heard. I want you to expand, express. breathe. Tell me anything you needed to say for so very long.

And no matter how you feel, I am here for you. You are never again alone.

LGA: I was afraid.

Of her.

Felt sick, very sick. Like I was just about going to die gasping for air, panic.

AA: I am here for you, LGA

LGA: I lay in bed scared at night.

I didn’t know if she’d be dead in the night, or if I will be dead.

Death is something I was afraid of every day, every night, just fear on and on and on.

AA: What did she say or do that made you so afraid?

LGA; She said: “I will murder you”, “I will kill myself” (she showed me where on her wrist she’d make the cut, she pointed to a bus or a truck on the street, saying she was going to run and place herself in front of it to be run over)

She told me a lot about how better it’d be for her to be dead, and she said the way I was, who or what I was made her want to kill herself.

I am feeling dizzy.

AA; Let’s talk more later, LGA. I want you to relax now. I love you, always

🤍✨️👧 Anita

Dear Tee:

“Yes, I understand your need to express, and please keep doing so if it brings you relief… My only suggestion is that if you’re expressing from your inner child (LGA), to also have your adult self present, to ‘carry’ her and soothe her, so that LGA wouldn’t feel overwhelmed and helpless again. LGA should feel like it has a healthy adult support now (you being in the role of a good parent), unlike in the past when she felt all alone.

“I think that’s how you can safely express and still not be pulled into the old feelings of fear, helplessness etc. Basically, to give LGA a container (a loving, listening ear) to safely express everything she feared to express in her childhood and beyond. If that makes sense?”-

Yes, it makes sense, Tee, thank you!

I want to do a LGA expression exercise with the adult-self present to carry and soothe LGA. I remember I’ve done it before 💪 😊

🤍 🫶 🙏 🫶 🤍 Anita