I realize that it has been a while since this thread and the replies have been posted.

But I was looking up this exact same topic and came across this.

SpinBunny, I am going through exactly what you are going through. You have described every single feeling I have felt in my hopeless situation.

I can say ditto to everything you said.

Iam in love with my co-worker. My colleague, friend and unfortunately committed to someone else love of my life.

We have the same intangible connection that is hard to explain. He makes me feel happy, fulfilled.

I have suffered in silence for almost 9 years. And none of my feelings have diminished or changed in that period.

How are you doing? Are you still taking classes with him?

I can’t believe I am actually putting this in writing. And can talk about this.