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  • August 15, 2017 at 8:28 am #164034
    Samu
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    Regarding telling parents, i must have told something.

    August 15, 2017 at 8:26 am #164032
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    Father did not pursue because may be he DID NOT BELIEVE ME!!!.. or may be he thought that it would get okay on its own.. there was not much awareness in those times.. or may be somehow/due to some reason he did not pay attention.. don’t know.

    August 12, 2017 at 8:40 am #163600
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    You told not to watch porn – GREAT point. Nobody told me that!!

    August 11, 2017 at 9:17 am #163450
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    * become – became

    August 11, 2017 at 9:16 am #163448
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    Dear Anita,

    I don’t think I shared these things with my parents because I was SO ABSORBED in it. I was so “immersed” in it that sharing did not occur to me. I am getting the idea JUST AS I AM WRITING!! I become PART of the “process” and not separate from it! It did not occur to me consciously to share these things with my parents. Although, they knew and my father went to the school and talked to the teacher who termed him good!.. and said that he helps in carrying her things (educational stuff, which he sometimes did)

    … and it all ended there.

     

    August 9, 2017 at 9:48 am #163044
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    I only know severe, harsh bullying by one boy in class 7-8. He used to slap me, take money from me, mimick my stammering and make faces as if he was very angry at me. I lived in his terror at all times at school. May be, it affected my academic performance. Although, I still managed okay. Apart from that, I was generally ridiculed by many at school in those times. I had a nickname too which means – one who is extraordinarily simple, fool, incapable etc. but my problems have begun earlier about which I don’t know apart from what my father tells – the loss of my grandfather.. we were extremely attached to each other. Another thing my father says is a head injury which I had in class 5 or 6. Apart from these, I don’t know anything significant.. nor my family knows anything more.

    August 8, 2017 at 10:53 pm #162976
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    Dear Anita,

    All my analysis of my problem to blame myself in the present could be to escape/avoid some harsh/hard/bitter/horrible/terrible/brutal/cruel reality/truth in the past which i don’t know or at least, don’t remember. I don’t know the problem. I don’t know whether i am going on the right path/on the right track or not.

    WHAT IS MY PROBLEM???

    August 8, 2017 at 10:45 pm #162974
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    Thank you. You are great!

    August 8, 2017 at 11:04 am #162884
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    .. ya, i think, may be i know my problem.. from my feelings and my family’s inputs.

    August 8, 2017 at 11:02 am #162882
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    I think you are an expert/specialist that is why I said “PLEASE HEAL ME NOW NOW NOW!!!…”

    August 8, 2017 at 11:01 am #162880
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    Couldn’t understand – “didn’t submit correctly…”

    August 8, 2017 at 11:00 am #162878
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    .. happy with your reply.

    August 8, 2017 at 10:58 am #162876
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    I AM SO HAPPY!

    August 7, 2017 at 11:40 pm #162784
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    how can i heal the subconscious? btw, i am addicted to watching mmf bisex on the net (don’t know why and link it to some unknown thing in childhood or the past).

    PLEASE HEAL ME NOW NOW NOW!!!…

    August 7, 2017 at 11:31 pm #162778
    Samu
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    Dear Anita,

    Symptoms like – SOMEHOW WANTING TO LIVE WITH PROBLEMS, PSYCHOLOGICAL TORTURE, HELL, SUFFERING – IN FACT, CREATING PSYCHOLOGICAL PROBLEMS FOR MYSELF EVEN WHEN THERE ARE NONE, Escapism, ESCAPING EVEN IF IT MEANS SELF-HARM OR ANYTHING WORSE – not able to face reality AT ANY COST, fear of facing reality or the world or life, fearful and nervous personality at all times, i used to stammer hugely earlier, i want to live in a ‘shell’ or safe or secure or free of problems, super negative, i have circular thinking, i do not want to be healed from somewhere deep inside, ABOVE ALL, IT IS NOT GOING EVEN AFTER DECADES, i can’t imagine or accept anything good such as even good luck!!!, i think it impossible to be healed, i think it impossible to remain healed in future, i cannot believe that i can be okay. i am always on the search for the root cause. i can’t believe in my own good luck!!

    i think i have some hidden or deep-rooted or deep-seated problem, i can’t get to the root of the problem

     

    how did/ do you escape

    skipped career, social life, duties, responsibilities, life’s daily routine work and life’s other essential things for 20 years

     

    childhood experience

    none in my memory. family tells i lost my grandfather when i was may be 5-7 years old. i  was hugely, immensely attached to him.. he was attached to me hugely as well.

     

    lastly, i was bullied VERY BADLY for 2 years when in class 7 and 8 but no sex angle to it

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