It sounds good.. But I think I am trying to work out the why…

Why am I engaging with her? Is it to control? Is it to win her back? And why is she doing it? Surely if she was satisfied in her relationship she wouldn’t need me or my kids in her life.

I am so confused by it all.. 2 years she was gone and it was like she died and I grieved… And then she came back and I rejoiced… But for what reason to come back if she has no interest or intention in actually making a connection.

I am scared to push her away completely by starting to demand things from her like inner peace..and there is a part of me that (as much as this limbo hurts) feels like I got my soul mate back even if it is just a sniff.. does any of what I am saying make sense or am I just rambling lol xx

Hi Anita

Thank you for you reply.

I don’t know if she is aware that she is angry but maybe she is.. I pushed at the end which ultimately broke us.

The issue is, I stil love her. I have been unable to date (I tried) because I believe that we are meant to be. She has been dating for 1.5years now and appears to be happy.. And yet she is the one who pushes the door open at random points in the journey.

I want authenticity… And right now neither of us appears to be able to offer it.

I don’t know what to do going forward.. I believe inevitably we will meet (due to the kids wanting to see her and us moving closer) but I want to be honest.

I don’t know if I should avoid contacting her again or what to do.

Ultimately I just want inner peace and right now I do not feel that at all