Wow you really come across as incredibly vain, selfish and ungrateful. And this “fix the world” complex you have will not make you any better in your own mind, maybe in the eyes of others…but your only fooling yourself. I don’t even get what the problem is here, all i see is a rich spoiled kid with no moral compass or direction in his life, lost at the edge of “manhood” and afraid of how to proceed. Dude work on yourself, get to know yourself, give up all your material things and do not be ruled by them.

Maybe you feel guilty because you have all these opportunities and others don’t. Well guess what, that’s the way it is. Don’t feel guilty because you have money, use it for the better. You get more when you give. Coincidentally…I need a new PC…chance of a 1000 dollars for one?? 😛

Go easy bro 🙂

Congrats on losing 10kg at the gym 🙂 Reading your post I can offer you some advice. The pain hurts, its real and soul crushing it seems. The solution is, take everything as it happened and accept it…in all its ugliness and nastiness. What he showed you was not love but a fleeting lust. His heart was never for you so do not hold onto the belief that him coming back into your life will make you happy again. You would be jealous, insecure and easily manipulated by this guy who trust me, isn’t a fool at how to play younger women for his own animalistic needs/wants and desires.

You are being governed by your emotions and your mind/ego. One should try their best to master these….there in lies the secret to a happy and prosperous life. You don’t need a man or anyone in your life to give it purpose,meaning or protection. All these things are within you and once you find that, no man shall ever put you in the darkness again.