Hi Anita,

How is your ankle?  I hope you are better.  It’s been a while.  Things have been very hectic, as usual…haha

I had a new renter that robbed me blind!  I was helping a person that I briefly knew and let someone they recommended rent from me.  They had no furniture or belongings so I let them borrow furniture/tv/household items & basically anything they needed since I had it & felt like I was doing a good thing.  Only after a week, they sold everything that wasn’t nailed down. Even the Heating unit &  Stole from my neighbors & I feel so bad.  I found out once I got him out he had not relocated, he had just gotten out of rehab. & was a junkie.  He looked very presentable, but sure fooled me & several others.

That is over now & I have started a business.  I just got my cards & things I need to get started…Wish me luck!  I have started taking better care of myself & to be a happy person.  I have been staying positive and realize life is a journey & it is what we make of it.  If we fail, Get up & start over.  Baby steps.  Rome was not built in a day!!

Miss our correspondence & hope to start again…One day we will have our Tea Time~

Bella~

Hi Anita,

I  have decided to do my best to put the part of my life with my ex behind me.  It doesn’t matter how, why or what.  It is over and should not have any impact on my life any longer.  I must follow that feeling instead of torturing myself.  I have many unanswered questions, but even with the answers would it matter? He left with not much of an explanation and most has been a mystery and will probably always be.  I need to realize after 8 mos. all I have found out is deceit & lies.  So, do I really want to know the truth?  I need to focus on my future, not the past with someone who did not care about my well being.

I wish you a Beautiful and Happy Christmas.  I hope Santa leaves you something you need and want! (Lights & Water) 🙂

As always Pray for me and I hope to make it through the day with Happy thoughts.

Bella~

Hi Anita,

Only a few more days until Christmas & I hope you have a Christmas Beautiful Day~

I have been dealing with a lot in the past week or so…Busted water heater and flooding of the basement/electrical issues with overhead ceiling lights and evicting my renter.  She refused to pay the rent and bills which were in my name~  She was a handful.  She also had moved her boyfriend & his 2 dogs in which was clearly not allowed without asking first.

I found out yesterday my ex did get married and purchased a large home on several acres, which really hurt!  He never even had a charge card when we were together & I had to co-sign for his car because he couldn’t get a loan.  How in the world could he purchase a home??  Knocks me for a loop.  This was all done back in the summer, only 3 months after he left.  I must say it rips my Heart out and makes me feel so disposable.  It’s like our 8 years together was absolutely meaningless to him.  I know I shouldn’t feel that way but I do.  3 months after he left all of this happened.  Merry Christmas to me, as if things weren’t bad enough…I am so sad and Heartbroken I can hardly stand it.  I don’t want to see or talk to anyone.  I feel like I am that person in a Snow Globe that never gets out and only picked from the shelf on occasion to shake & watch the glitter fall back to the ground.

I have scanned the dating sites thinking it would cheer me up and distract me for a bit, but it was terrible.  Maybe 3 guys were cute, but after reading their profiles I knew Thay were not my type.  I will leave the men alone for now.  When I found out about my ex it set me back a bit.  When I found out about him I realized I still had hoped we may have gotten back together.  I just didn’t want to admit to myself.  I had this crazy idea he would come back and tell me how much he Loved and missed me and that he had made a terrible choice by leaving.  I feel I really wanted to know I was Loved and that what we had shared did count for something.  I really don’t think I will ever be able to trust a man.  I can’t stop crying and I can barely see the keyboard to type.

You are the only person I have mentioned this to.  I really wish we could have our tea together in the morning and have a nice talk.

My Heart is truly Broken in a million pieces~

Bella

Hi Anita,

I hope you are back home safe & dry after your 3.5-mile walk.  Wow, you have a lot of discipline to walk every day and in such nasty weather.  We had about 12inches of snow Sunday I forgot to mention.  So glad the power did not go out.  My stray Black Kitty that I feed just showed up a few minutes ago since the snow.  I am sure he is very hungry it is about 1:30 in the afternoon and he usually only come at night.  I have been looking for him every evening since the snow and was starting to get concerned.  It always makes me feel better knowing he has a full belly.  I would Love to hold him and let him know he is Loved…But, he is too afraid.  Maybe someday I will be able to hold him!

Earl Grey?? Actually, I do have some…I would like a sweet hot mocha Starbucks coffee…:)

I can’t believe Christmas is only 13 days from now.  This will be my first Christmas to be alone since my Mother passed away.  My  ex has been with me since shortly before she passed.  I can’t tell you how much I am looking forward to the Holidays to be over.  I don’t like wishing time away, but this year has probably been one of the loneliest years of my life.  I pray that God will Bless me in 2019 and give me some hope.

Be safe Anita and stay dry~

Bella~

Hi Anita,

Thank You for your kind and inspiring words.  I will work on this today.

Bella~

You know exactly how I am feeling~

Hi Anita,

Looking for an Honest & Caring and Sincere Honorable Gentleman.  No Drama, I am looking to Enhance my partners life~as well as him mine…I am looking for a casual relationship that has the possibilities to grow into a life-long partner.  I would like a man who is straightforward/ Romantic & wants to enjoy his life with a partner that has the same values.

Change anything, am open to suggestions!

Bella~

Hi Anita,

Please tell me your advice on dating.  Very interested!  Maybe I can focus on that.

Thank you,

Bella~