Hi Jeff, I’m sorry for you, I have been there myself and I know how tough it is. 5 years later I still often dream of finding that deep comfort in his arms. The little progress I made is that now I have accepted what happened. I tell myself that I was true to my feelings all along. In someways I was lucky to have married the man I loved, not everybody does (and possibly he didn’t). Life is stronger than anything in good ways and bad ways and you cannot control it. I had hoped that I would have found another loved one, or maybe compensated with some interesting work but it hasn’t happened and sometimes I feel as if I have aged before time. But I also have found somewhat of a gentler existence, not much excitement, a lot of solitude, and it is not all unpleasant, at least it is peaceful. One thing I know for sure, that pain, that desperation, eventually fades away like when you recover from a serious injury. You must have faith that you will one day, not too far away, feel better so even if it seems hard now: look ahead. Good luck and take care