Dear Michelle, Thanks for your words. Those two points you describe were exactly what I felt like, then I feel guilty and angry with myself, but I have been moving on, however this last experience just made me wonder crazy things.

Definitely I am not going to throw myself to the hookup thing, I am starting to think more clearly and that is not what I want.

Thanks for sharing your experience.

Kay

• This reply was modified 5 years, 10 months ago by Kay.

Thank you Inky!  I would definitely forget about online dating apps and try to meet people in real life through connections

Hi Mark,

Yes,  I realize what he did to me, for many weeks I felt so angry with myself for letting that to happen, but finally I kind of forget  myself and I stopped thinking about that. I know I have to get tested, but I think I have been delaying that because I do not want to bring the shame and angry again, but definitely it is something I will do.

And yes again, having any kind of relationship is a challenge for me. The point is, most of my friends are already married, with families and their own lifes, and everytime I just feel more isolated, even when I try to keep me busy when I have free time to think about that. I am not looking my self for a sexual lover, but it seems like that is the only important thing for men.

I was raised in a conservative latino culture and raised Catholic. During my childhood there was a point in which I had friends, but then I got isolated and became more like an introvert, I do not really remember exactly how that hapened.