Hello,
You are not alone in what you are going through. I’ve had a difficult childhood as well. We share some similarities with parents fighting, a strong-willed mother, and 5 siblings as well! And the icing on the cake? I am diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder. It has taken me a while to accept my life situations. We can not change our past, but we can change how we think and how we feel about ourselves, and our lives. I like to believe that everything happens for our greatest good. We may not understand why certain things happen, but somewhere down the road, it will all make sense, and our true strength will be revealed. I’ve suffered from GAD ever since I was in 9th grade. I am now 25 years old. After a lot of inner battles, blaming, defeats, and running away, I got tired of fighting what is. I had to face my reality. I had to learn how to love and be kind to myself, I had to learn to change the terrible story I’ve told myself about my life. I know life is difficult, but it is also beautiful. You do whatever it takes to take care of your well being and then watch how the world will take care of you back.