Dear alyahB_ , 

I understand you completely. I understand how it feels to literally be surrounded by thousands of new people everyday and still feel lonely. In my opinion it seems you just need someone to talk to. I think you should push yourself up and start school. Make friends who enjoy doing the same thing as you. If you cant seem to find that push start go somewhere an interior designer, writer, psychologist, model, etc., might go and somehow build up the courage to start a conversation with someone who looks intriguing to you . Engage in your surroundings. I once saw this quote that said “you are strongest when you are alone” . You’ve got this. I believe in you. and if that doesn’t seem to work, you could start focusing on yourself. Maybe you could rearrange a room in your home, write a book, buy a camera and start taking your own pictures, you said you like health/wellness so maybe you could do a 30 day yoga or fitness challenge. Learn a dance lol. anything that makes YOU HAPPY, pursue it with or without others in your life. Find what gives you energy and apply it graciously to those you encounter everyday. People will start to pick up on your energy and sooner or later someone who shares your same wavelength will come into your life and you’ll both spread your good vibes, together.

lol i hope that wasn’t too corny.

With much LOVE , cece.