Hi Savanah,
May I suggest that you start to write things down, like I did.
Just start with just a single word, a feeling, a memory…
Then, when the feeling takes you, go on to a sentence or two…
Then maybe a paragraph, if you want to…
When you write one thing and think of another thing, write that down too…
Draw circles around these words/sentences on paper and link things together, literally using circles and connecting lines – as you say, “everything connects”.
Your subconscious will slowly release powerful memories and feelings if you allow a little bit to come out slowly, like opening a pressure cooker and letting a little bit of steam come out. Just do it slowly and try to hear the message you already know deep in your heart.
This method really helped me.
I wish you the best.
Claire