Yeap def will lesson learned and leart hard and well ..

Well for instance trying to please everyone else before myself in reltionship stauts my emotions go all over the place esp if i fall for that woman if i feel something aint right i shall say its it me what i have a done stuff like that …Soft and Emotinonal all over the place i feel hurt angry even though it aint my fault sometimes when i do or say something wrong im very quick to appoligse ..

Hence back to the woman she new i was on anti D And knew how vunerable i was after first time and that there was my downfall to soft

i dont know what other way to put it all i know is i need to love myself first and foremost but its hard

I take things to heart to much i try to give out to much love somtimes needy i though i had met the perfect woman but was not to be i took 2 weeks off because of this got back together but she decided to finnsh it via facebook

Did say i was not her type but decided she wanted to try and i did say if you had told me that in the first place we would never have been at this stage for me but thats done i keep re doing the past and i want to stop it punnshing myself for stuff

No im 42 the woman was 47 i was in a 12 year relationship brought someones 4 kids up then had our own we spilt up but still get on i had a 2 week thing that finnshed ok then met antoher that was 5 months near and i think that one hit me the hardest but im still young i suppose and im too soft inside i have to be harder and stop punshing myself you cant undo stuff and have to stop living in the past and i do it all the time and its hard to focus and move on but it def aint healthy some days are good some are bad I just think im not hard enough in that sense and just to vunerable but i have a 10 year old boy whom im going abroad with i did spent that on the other woman but changed his to his name this is a big lesson and its one i have to never make again … i normally do weights at the gym which im going back to tommoro going to do a day at a time i cant controll socail media facebook so i tend to stay off it now