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September 28, 2019 at 5:26 pm #314913
I had the same urge to disconnect from/cut out toxic relationships, alcohol, some parts of social media as well as TV (which I followed through with) and it was freeing to say the least. At first it felt empty, all of my feelings and negative emotions started to surface because I sort of took out a lot of vices that distracted me from addressing what was underneath. But afterwards, it became a lot easier. I started to discover amazing things about myself and I introduced new and uplifting things into my life. I’m still going through the journey and sometimes it is difficult but I feel a lot more patience and love towards myself, people in my life and even strangers.
I had friends that reached out through my phone number (as opposed to social media) and I formed a new relationship with them. They knew the person I’ve become and appreciated me for it and I got to know them a lot more deeply.
So, if you believe it is what you need to live a positive life then go for it!
De.August 20, 2019 at 9:58 am #308747
I was able to get the series on Apple Music and I started this morning. It was a bit difficult since my mind wandered off a lot but when I did refocus, I felt very relaxed and at peace. After I was done, it was much easier to get on with my day because I was somewhat more focused than normal on the present and I just feel a lot happier.
I would say that the loud sound at the end of the track made me jump, I wasn’t expecting that haha and his English accent is very soothing.
De.August 20, 2019 at 7:43 am #308711
Thanks for responding and the lovely insight. I will try to be patient with myself through the process. Things have been going pretty well in my life apart from this aspect and I guess part of me just wants it all to get resolved but I know now that it’s a lifelong process. I need to put in the work everyday with meditation that Anita suggested and ensure I don’t backtrack by bringing abusive people into my life like you suggested.
I want to enrol in a pottery class for Fall with hopes that I meet like minded people and maybe make some friends.
De.August 19, 2019 at 3:18 pm #308625
i’ll definitely give it a go. Thanks for the help! I really appreciate it.August 19, 2019 at 1:58 pm #308599
I’ve read about meditation on here and also journaling. I’m somewhat consistent with journaling but I haven’t tried meditation. What are your thoughts on it?August 19, 2019 at 11:44 am #308583
Thanks so much for responding and taking the time out to explain the concept to me.
I sort of knew my relationship with my parents contributed to the intimacy issues I have but I didn’t know that it’s not enough to just leave that environment physically. Moving here, the first month, I felt amazing, the best I’ve felt all my life but as the months went by, it became increasingly difficult.
I never thought that they’re still speaking to me through the voices in my head and I didn’t realize that my room is my safe haven. I just felt like I was antisocial and the problem was me.
Currently, I’m trying to be patient with myself. I was able to pull myself out of a very bad week. I read a lot of articles, books and I journaled a lot. I feel excited to start work this week and I have a lot of things I want to try but I’m just scared that those voices will return as soon as I step out of the house and I’ll have to start fighting again to get back up.
I really just want it all to end. How are you able to set yourself free from the mental prison?