Anita – I was sincere about my comment…
I don’t know if it is being brought up in strict religion (which I am no longer a part of) or what…but I get this feeling that if I don’t share the wealth of knowledge with more than just my family and friends, that I am somehow disappointing Source or God…whatever you like to call it. So I mean that I feel like I will be held accountable in that when I die Source will show me all the things I “didn’t” do and should have done to help people with the knowledge I have.

Some times I honestly don’t want to HAVE to do any of those skills or talents…I just want to be a mom and a wife and that’s it. But NOT doing those skills makes me feel guilty…like Source is looking down on me shaking it’s head in disappointment.

Kind of like the judgement an extremely wealthy person gets for not sharing his wealth with anyone else.

I am certainly not wealthy by any stretch of the imagination…but I have these gifts/skills that way heavy on me, like a burden. IF I don’t use them or teach them I feel guilty. I feel like I am wasting them.

I just want to feel like if I don’t want to use those gifts, it’s okay. I want to feel like it’s okay to just want to be a simple woman, a mother and wife without having to be responsible to have to use my gifts.

I really like my life. I love my son and my husband, we have a quaint little home and garden, just enough space for the 3 of us. We don’t have much, but I enjoy it. I enjoy the simple life and just doing my gifts when I feel like it…not because I feel like I have to or someone will be disappointed with me. Is that okay? I struggle so hard with this! I guess I just want to know if I am enough…just the way I am…if I never do a single thing more with my gifts…