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April 4, 2022 at 5:31 pm #396955
Honestly no I’ve never had those thoughts towards my parents. I’ve never thought about that until nowApril 2, 2022 at 8:29 pm #396812
When I went to college my anxiety spiked a lot. Although when I came back home permanently it subsided. For the past two months, I have been experiencing a lot of anxiety. I’ve been crying all the time. I feel very uneasy every day. My mind is fixated on not feeling those ” in love” feelings. Giving me thoughts like ” you should feel something for him all the time or ” this isn’t normal not feeling anything” Although I know I love my boyfriend just not experiencing those in love feelings at this time and my mind isn’t working very well with it. I am calm in this moment but the question you asked is kind of iffy for me. I’ve lived with my parents my whole life. My dad is normally at work during the day and my mom is normally the one home more. It has always been like that. My childhood was pretty good. At a time my aunt lived with us and she was into drugs and would disappear for hours. My parents would argue with her. I was in 3rd grade when that happened. During middle school a lot of people disliked me over a lie somebody told about me and people were threatening me alot. I also had a bad relationship in middle school. His mother was physco. I’m not sure if any of that would play a factor.April 1, 2022 at 8:10 pm #396694
You seem to be really helpful and I would love to hear your opinion. In February I went to a basketball game and my ex was there and he ended up speaking to me. I have not spoken to him for almost two years. That relationship ended bad. After that, my mind went into a spiral about my current relationship. Thoughts like do I love him? It made me feel so wrong and guilty. I cried and cried because I didn’t understand. It made no sense to me at all. me and my current relationship have been together for a year and four months. He is my longest relationship and this relationship means the world to me. I am very comfortable around him. I act my true self around him and we always talk about our problems. This relationship is very different from my past ones. Although, me and my current relationship did go through a rough patch. When I was away at college I had found out he was sexting a fake account. When i first found out i believe i was in shock so i didn’t really feel anything towards him. He picked me up the day after it happened and i can remember him asking me if i was going to say anything. we eventually got back to his house and talked and he balled his eyes out but i didn’t care because i felt like that’s what he deserved. While i was in college i had very bad separation issues from being away from him. I felt homesick being away from him. That was around October. Once the shock wore off I began to really overthink about it. meanwhile I’ve always been an overthinker. I’m now back at home switching to a community college. I have been around my boyfriend a lot more. Fast forward to now I feel like in not feeling those ” in love” feelings and it’s really taking a toll on me i feel so wrong for it but I’m trying to accept that it’s normal two not always feel them. I’ve been like this for two months now. Pretty much crying every day because I don’t understand why I’m not experiencing those feelings even though I know I love my partner and never wanna lose him. I do feel like a part of me is blocked off. I’m not sure if I fell out of the honeymoon phase or if I’ve just been through so much that I had a break.