Thanks everyone for the advice! Im grateful for your kindNess 🙂 I don’t know if I’ll be number 1 or be that special person bUT I will keep taking care of myself and not wanting to find someone anymore. Again thank you!

Ninja, I see where you’re coming from. It’s just I thought she would be different. I had former vest friends and I thought molly would be completely different. I haven’t spoken to her and I’m never going to talk to her again. I’m Not looking for that special friend anymore because I’m going to put myself first. When my therapist told me that life is too short, I was telling myself that I have to start taking better care of myself. I don’t want to live a life of trying to make someone stay in my life anymore.

I didn’t want to ask her to spend time with me anymore. I had to accept that she’ll keep spending more time with him. I was also tired of her excuses and gals promises. It really hurt when she didn’t speak to me over a month after she told me she’ll speak to me in 2 weeks. I asked myself don’t I deserve better? None of my friends don’t give me false promises and excuses like she did. The more I kept tolerating what she did the more excuses I kept getting from her. My therapist told me that If I continue to still be her friend, then I have to accept what she’s been doing but I’ll only keep getting hurt. He told me that I have been feeling miserable with what she’s doing and that I have to focus more on myself. When I told her, I didn’t want to be her friend anymore, I cried. It was a mixture of relief and sadness. I don’t want to keep hurting her but I don’t want myself to keep getting the short end of the stick

I already dealt with my issues. I’m not like this with all of my friends. Even my friends see it too. They told me that she would rather be with her boyfriend than be with me. She would spend HOURS with him. But only a minute with me. I was always the one trying to make our friendship work. She stopped putting in effort in our relationship. I’m in college, finding a job and making sure I spend time with myself and wwith my friends. I do know how to balance my life out. She wouldn’t even message me for weeks! I understand that she has her own life butshe has her own issues too. She used to tell me what would happen with her bipolar disorder and I used to tell her my anxiety issues as well. I gave her chance after chance. Even when I would spend time being with my friends and family and with myself, a part of me just wanted to end a dead relationship and the other part kept missing her. She would be active on Facebook with her bf, forgetting about me. (Until I message her) if she can make loads of time with her boyfriend who lives in Oregon and she lIves in the UK than why she stopped making time for me. No mater how many times I told her jat I missed her, most of the time it would end with I know. I had enough of it. I did my very best to be patient with her. She knew how I felt and didn’t care.

*overreacting

*better

Thank you 🙂