Please anyone,

I did 2 horrible things that keep me up at night and make me hate my self..when i was about 8 or 9 years i peed in a bottle and gave it to my grandpa to drink i told him it was juice and he drank it..my parents found out,yelled at me all that..my grandpa was always good to me and he passed away years ago so i cant even apologize..

The second event was when i was 14 i stole my fathers gold jewelery and  traded  it for a motorcycle,(the guy tricked me didnt even give me a motorcycle just took the gold).My dad said he forgave me multipul times but still my heart hurts..

II know i am not the same person as then (i am 22 now)i try to do good and everyone thinks i am but i think i am horrible for those things..it’s like it will forever haunt me..thanks for listening anybody..