I fell in love over 4 years ago, and ever since then my heart has never been satisfied. I can only sympathies with your pain. I fell in love without even knowing I was attached. I went everyday, out of my way to see him, I spent nights away thinking about him, I slept on park benches and outside his house in my car just to feel like I was with him. I texted him all the time, I still couldn’t tell him my feelings. I choked back my pride still the words couldn’t come out. I tried and I tried. I never thought I was good enough, size 12, life self esteem issues I never though I was good enough for a man like him. He was ripped… How could he want a girl like me? Yet he appeared to be so humble. He has such a spell on me that one finger of his could touch my body and send me to shivers. He slept on the beach for me, he tried to fight for me, he told me he loved me was this all a lie? He had eyes that could see right through your soul. Ever since he left for Iran I knew he was different. Maybe it was that look in his eye… I have no idea, I just knew him too well for him not to act like this. I received a call 11:45am I remember it like it was yesterday. Sitting on my couch watching Hasee toh Pahsee and talking to my mum. I picked up the phone. “Imogene you know why iv been so different?” The first thing that ran through my head “Please don’t tell me your married…” I felt knots in my throat finding it difficult to speak. “Mmmmhhhhm” he replied. I felt my heart break into a thousand pieces, I held my breathe not because i wanted to because I couldn’t let it out. I hung up, delete, delete, delete. My body fell to the ground. I was on my knees. I couldn’t breathe. I felt like I had lost everything. He asked me for a kiss, I refused it all passed through my mind in milliseconds. “You will get married” I don’t want to kiss you.””Imogene I promise I wont” he said. He broke his promise.. “I don’t want to get married until I have a job and a house, until I have my life sorted.” Its your fault you didn’t kiss me now im married! He gave me a ring.. A fake one… But it didn’t even matter it was fake i just wanted to know he was there. I haven’t taken it off. “Imogene this is goodbye” he said as he gave me the ring at a park 5 minutes from his house. Ill always feel ,like my heart is with him. It kills me every time i close my eyes I see him with his Muslim fiance. The thought of her carrying his womb kills me. I cant close my eyes. I’ll I see is them. I call his phone straight to message bank. 4 years of hurt. Raouf Sadeghi.