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I wish i can just look for another job. But i can’t. And it kills me Because i have to work with him. I have to deal with him six days a week and i am not that emotionally strong to pretend that everything is going fine. :'(
My world stopped completely. I dropped my subjects(im under study while work permit), i didnt enroll for summer and im really lost.im so stupid and weak. I hate myself because i can not fight back and stand up.

I am currently in this situation right now and im totally broken. We have been together for one year and 3months and we really love each other. Im a christian and he is muslim. We met here in canada as colleagues, and madly fell inlove with each other. Im a foreign worker and im working with a contract under my boyfriend’s uncles. They learned about our relationship, talked to us to separate, even threatened both of us that they will send their nephew who is my boyfriend in lebanon and me in my country. But we fought and lasted for a year and 3 months. His uncle can not do anything Even if they make my life in the store a living hell. I can not find another job because im under contract and i dont wanna leave my love of my life. We work together, see each other everyday and we fall inlove again and again each day that comes. I am now 23. I heard from him just last saturday that his uncles who are on vacation in lebanon and his parents in lebanon arranged a marriage for him. He is now engaged with a girl that he never met personally and will be married in his coming vacation within this year. This is the only way his uncles could think to make the two of us separate even at our early age.
My boyfriend and his family is too traditional that they believe in arranged mareiage than letting one of them love and marry someone who is not in their community. My boyfriend can not say no to his family because both of us are still young, he works for his uncles, he is the bread winner in his family and if he chose me he will be excluded in his family and work Where he is the assigned manager.
I feel so helpless, i asked him if we can still be together since the girl is miles away from us and i can not afford working with him, and seeing him everyday with the thought that he is going to be with someone else. I know that it is so stupid of me to want the two of us to continues loving each other despite what is going on now. He said it would be difficult becuase he needs to learn to forget me and learn to love his future wife. But i insisted and because he loves me, we are still doing what we used to do, what lovers are used to do.
But everytime im alone, i always cry because i know that he will be getting married very soon. Im thinking of suiciding or planning to get impregnated with him hoping that our baby will change whatever is happening now.
I need your help. What should i do?