Thanks for your quick reply, Anita!

Yes, I had a toxic relationship for two and a half years, which ended on May 2018. After this break up I didn’t miss my ex, but I noticed I became more insecure about how I looked, insecure about my personality, about my intelligence. I had not been interested in anyone since that relationship, so I hadn’t experienced feeling jealous toward someone, until I met him and felt it. I knew I was just there for five days, and that I had to enjoy, but jealousy took over me.

I’m not a fan of social media anymore, especially the ones where people pretend their life is perfect, but before visiting him I could help to look at the likes he had on his pictures, and go to every girl profile. If they were open accounts I would go through the photos and see if he liked them (I sound so crazy 🙁 )… so I found this one girl he posted a heart to. While we were at this bar I confessed him of my stalking, to which he replied in a normal way: it’s ok, I’ve been through your pictures too… and i told him I didn’t just watch his pictures but his likes and girls profiles and what I found about this girl. He got upset because he said she was only his friend and that nothing ever happened between them, and that he felt accused and judged by me

At this same bar on Friday i was sure he was looking at a girl (which now I know he wasn’t).

It’s important to mention this friend i got jealous about on Saturday was HIS BEST FRIENDS FIANCÉE! I felt they had this weird way of talking to each other, according to my ideas they were being flirty, and when I confronted him he (upset once more) told me: she is my best friend’s fiancée, what do you mean!?

He felt disappointed that I didn’t trust him.

All of this I’m telling you happened this weekend, and yesterday I started a new job. He texted me: good luck on your first day!!

i just replied with a: thanks! Have a good day Because, like I told him: I think we should stop talking when I get back to Mexico, and he said: I don’t think it should be that way, I still care about you.

of course I would love to keep talking to him but if I knew this was going somewhere… also I don’t want to be his friend, and he was clear he doesn’t want it. What should I do? Delete him? Block him? Or just leave him there in case life ever brings me close to him again? Is everything lost?…

sorry if the order of the paragraphs is messed, I was typing this from my phone and kept remembering things as I wrote this.