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    omg i am going through the exact same thing right now. i am 16 and my boyfriend is 17. we have been together for a year and a half now and suddenly one night all these questions came to my head. i would freak out, shake, cry, i could not get out of bed. i was physically ill from feeling this pain because i felt so guilty and wrong. i was scared to see my boyfriend because i was afraid the inlove feeling wouldnt come back, but they did. its mostly when im all alone at home these thoughts come and i go crazy but when i talk to him it all goes away. some things to tell you if i think they matter.. 1) i did have a hard life growing up especially with my parents physically fighting and verbally. they are divorced now and hate each other. 2) my boyfriend did cheat on me last year so im still trying to get over that, we are doing much better though. 3) my boyfriend has a computer addiction so its hard to get him to do things and get his attention. i love him so much and i want to seriously be with this man forever but sometimes when i think that i get so scared and all these crazy thoughts come to my head like ” do you love him”? is he the one for you? and sometimes when a guy comes around i get uncomfortable and think their a bit cute but thats it, but i feel so guilty for it. i never want to cheat on him because i dont love anyone else and i dont want anyone else period. its like the anxiety just wrecks everything and i can never be happy. when im at his house i get all better but when im alone i start to freak and feel i need to talk to him. my situation is very similar to mickey. if anyone can reply to this or help me, it would make me feel so much better. also i did see my boyfriend everyday in school for a year and in the summer and now i dont see him a lot so please say it can be with drawl symptoms from not being with him as much. also i told my boyfriend these feelings and he said dont worry babe i will be here no matter what and we will get through this together and it made me so happy but also scared, i actually felt that he really truly loved me, and it scared me. also i talked to my social worker about this and she thinks its because im coming to the realization that he might never come over his addiction and i might have to change something. but i REALLY DO NOT want to end. i love him so much and he gives me a feeling no one else can give. i crave him all the time. honestly if i really did not love him i wouldn’t of gotten back together after he cheated on me and after all his bullshit with his video game addiction lol. sorry i know this is a lot to take in but PLEASE give me advice or anything. i wanna help this relationship so much because i believe in him. he has such a wonderful side when he is off the computer and i know one day we will get to it. anyways i just wanna figure out what is happening to me 🙁

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