thankyou, it’s a good idea, i will try it. but i still think i can’t do anything. wpuld this be because im too desperate or because something else? i just don’t think i am enough to him always.

add: i can’t talk any useful or fun anymore i don’t understand people or feel anymore i am scared every second someone makes a sound or asks attention from me what is it.

hey guys, thanks for your answers. but it’s kinda complicated. i tried to relax, and it helped, but i still can’t do the things i like because im too obsessed making a change. it’s because i want to be there for people. my parents have been pushing me when i got my first boyfriend to do stuff with them and get outside the house. i did, but it wasn’t easy. because i wanted to be there for both and started to be egoistical. we broke up because i was so selfish, and then i started to ruin even more relationships with people i loved. people still are there for me, so the pressure is high to make a change.