Hi Tracey,

Thank you for responding and the offer to give you a call to talk if times get tough. That is so kind of you.
Have you sought professional help to deal with it? I generally don’t get the depressive feelings just the anxiety takes hold of me and I get into a right panic state. Once I have calmed down and rationally thought about the situation I can grasp that it’s all in my head and not real life and I get on with my day.
That empty feeling is so horrible, I know exactly what you mean with that. My therapist suggested this week that I actually sit with the fear in stead of trying to avoid it and talk to it when it starts to happen. To cry when I feel like crying and be angry when I feel like being angry. By avoiding it I only make it worse she stated. So next time it happens I am going to try this and see if it works. I obviously don’t know the full extend of your situation so I strongly suggest you talk to someone as well and also as Marshmellow suggested is to talk to friends and family about it. At least you get to air it out a little even if they don’t know how you feel at that point. That, in itself, can be a great relieve too.

Joyce xx

Hi,

That’s exactly what it feels like. This feeling of being torn apart inside. Anxious, sad, lonely, desperate feeling of being left behind.

I think acknowledging that we have it, is a huge step forward in trying to come to terms with it I suppose. I am not sure if a pet would help.

I thought the exact same thing that if we all just lend a helping virtual hand or a virtual ear to someone who is going through an anxious time we may be able to pull ourselves through it. Because I do know when my rational mind kicks back in that none of what I felt and though is actually real. I am never desolate or totally alone. I know that my thoughts are ridiculous but at that point they are so real. So maybe talking or writing through them may help us.

Thank you for your response. Let’s help each other! 🙂

Joyce.

Thank you Matt! Your words did bring me some clarity and as I put above I have decided after lots of talk, tears, heated discussions, etc… that it is worth to pick it up and continue. From everything that was said and done yesterday it has made me decide that it is worth trying again. No matter how hard it was and how much I choked on words and emotions yesterday I finally got my word out. I’m not completely there as yet and still more things have to be talked through and actions have to be taken but I feel relieved and on the path of getting better.
I have looked into the meditation you recommended. I have never done anything like it before and I will give it a go starting tonight.
Thank you for your kind advice and wise words.
Joyce.