I feel like I found my soul mate..she won’t talk to me anymore, with good reason. I kinda acted crazy and chased her away. It was interesting..somehow I knew when she was upset mad angry..there was signs all along that pointed to her being my soul mate. We had the exact same experienced growing up, she is like my mirror image of myself. Sometimes the similarities we so much I pretended to be different from her. The problem is she is a tough girl who doesn’t feel deeply about people or we’ll me I guess. She would come to me for everything and when I told her I loved her she became very cold. I couldn’t deal with the pain of rejection, I was so confused, this was the third girl I loved and I felt this amazing connection to her. When I first met her there was a beam of energy pulling me to her, I couldn’t stop it, and didn’t want to, it was like everything was set up ahead of time, all the words were there already. Her child’s father is a problem but I didn’t care. I loved her. I was doped up on Xanax for a long time and was numb, so I couldn’t express my feeling until it was too late, when I did get off Xanax and told her she didn’t accept it, she didn’t like it, she became cold. I am heart broken now and honestly can’t see myself with anyone else. All I feel is pain and sadness. She won’t talk to me,she thinks I’m a bad person.