I was at my lowest point about a week ago. I felt like crawling into a dark cave and hiding from the world. What I realized was that I was already in a cave. I had isolated myself from my friends and family and I was constantly lying to myself about what I wanted vs what I needed. I created a reality that was not sustainable and put my feelings of self worth elsewhere – where it was not cared for – duh!. I found this forum and have read nearly every article. Now when I’m feeling down, I read the articles on the site or links from it that I’ve saved that inspire me. I made an appointment with a counselor (look for a good one who inspires you). I reached out to friends and family. I was honest with myself . . . finally. I forgave myself . . . finally. I can tell you that I am feeling so much better.
Congratulations to you for finding this forum too and for reaching out. Everyone deserves to be selfish. I encourage you to be selfish and love yourself more. Seek help and support from anywhere that you can. Love yourself.
It sounds like you are aware that the situation is not ideal and also not what you want. It’s unfortunate that your boyfriend does not treat you the way that you want to be treated, but there is nothing you can do to force him to. If you know what you want and it sounds like you do, I’d encourage you to seek support to deal with the fears that you have (good on ya posting to this forum) that prevent you from demanding you are treated how you want to be treated. It’s okay to be alone and take a step back. You have your whole life ahead of you and you deserve to be happy and to be fulfilled by your relationships. Good luck to you.
Viewing 2 posts - 1 through 2 (of 2 total)
This site is not intended to provide and does not constitute medical, legal, or other professional advice. The content on Tiny Buddha is designed to support, not replace, medical or psychiatric treatment. Please seek professional care if you believe you may have a condition.
Tiny Buddha, LLC may earn affiliate income from qualifying purchases, including from the Amazon Associate Program.