I am also very sorry that you have been faced with this experience and this great heartache. I have felt a similar pain for the past seven months. I went through a sudden break-up after six years together. When I approached my ex-boyfriend with questions about the future of our relationship, he decided we should part ways. I have constantly wished to rekindle our relationship. I understand what you said about not wanting to move on, about preferring to die rather than move on. I, too, don’t want to move on because moving on means that it is really over. The loss is so deep and inexplicable. I wish I could offer you some enlightening advice that would take away your pain, but I don’t have anything more to offer than what all the others have said. What I can offer you is the sincere hope that time heals your pain and that you find someone who makes you glad this happened.