Hi Jo,

A Google search on this topic led me to your post and immediately resonated with me. I wish I had an answer or the right words to help but I don’t. However, your post did help me. It helped by knowing that we are not alone.

My Google search was, “I don’t feel like a good person anymore”.  I used to be full of life and enjoyed being with family and friends but now feel I’ve gotten bitter and judgmental about everything.  Like you, I’ve had things happen recently that didn’t meet my expectations, leaving me disappointed. Compound those situations over a couple of years and it gets where everyday is a struggle.

As simple-minded as it is, watching meaningful movies helps me when I’m in a bad head-space. Cast Away (Tom Hanks) is the one that has a good message and helps me work through things when I feel things are hopeless. I feel that some of the things his character went through is a metaphor of my life.  “Everything’s perfect –> Catastrophe –> Alone –> Lost Hope –> Saved –> Knows what he needs to do to move forward although it didn’t happen as planned.”

One of the best quotes to me is in his monologue about coming home and finding his fiancee has moved after believing he was dead. “And I know what I have to do now. I gotta keep breathing. Because tomorrow the sun will rise. Who knows what the tide could bring?”

I don’t have the answers but reading your post made me feel.  I hope this helps you as well. Keep breathing. Who knows what the tide could bring?