Thanks for your response as well John! I don’t have a problem with porn and actually a few times we’ve had it on in the background. I just am missing the connection on a deeper level. He rarely looks me in the eye when he kisses me, it’s always off to the side and hardly ever any passion behind it.
The sexual fantasy part, I can totally feel and I kinda had that thought myself. Then it just brought up all kinds of insecurities of living up to that standard. Which is dumb, I know. 🙂 I want to connect with him more sooooo bad. I guess I’m worried about him feeling “less than” or that he’s done something wrong, so I will have to ponder how/when I can have this conversation.
I feel sometimes that he is cut off from his emotions and being an emotional person myself, I find that I have been holding back a lot.
I love him so much. This relationship has taught me more about myself than any other. I don’t know if it’s because I am more aware this time. All I know is we both want to do things differently than we have in the past.
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