Thank you for your response Matt!

The sexual fantasy part, I can totally feel and I kinda had that thought myself. Then it just brought up all kinds of insecurities of living up to that standard. Which is dumb, I know. 🙂 I want to connect with him more sooooo bad. I guess I’m worried about him feeling “less than” or that he’s done something wrong, so I will have to ponder how/when I can have this conversation.

I feel sometimes that he is cut off from his emotions and being an emotional person myself, I find that I have been holding back a lot.

I love him so much. This relationship has taught me more about myself than any other. I don’t know if it’s because I am more aware this time. All I know is we both want to do things differently than we have in the past.