I also feel the same way…

You repeat the same pattern everyday, over and over again. I want something more than this, something more interesting, something new.

Also that statement about how killing yourself is illogical I also think that its pointless. Why kill yourself? What would I gain from that? Peace? Life is already peaceful as it is I don’t need any more of that…

I often find myself just wanting to sleep and just dream away rather than be awake and do the things I’ll do the same tomorrow.

Oh if some of you are wondering… No this is not the effect of the present pandemic. I’ve been this since… I don’t know to be honest…

Over the years I’ve became more cynical and manipulative of those around me. If anyone ever does something that annoys me I’ll do everything in my power to make that person miserable. I make them miserable without them knowing that it’s me whose making them feel like that.

You could say that I’m afraid of confrontation which you’re probably right. Nevertheless, I’ll still put up my facade of being this good child and friendly person and on the inside a violent and chaotic one.