Thank you Saiisha. It’s like a breath of fresh air hearing other perspectives. It is really helpful. I don’t know how i feel at the moment. I completely agree with you though i do need to start on focusing trying to like myself more. I think sometimes i do put my happiness into other peoples hands and think i can’t decide anything alone. I thought i’d overcome my anxiousness but lately its at a peak and i think its because i’m so unsure about everything. In my mind i strive for perfection within everything.

Thanks so much for the advice. It’s good to see someone else’s view of the situation. I’m just struggling with my emotions at the minute & missing the closeness. I just notice little things like the way he backs off when i go to kiss him. Like you say if it wasn’t for saving for a house together i would think differently thats why i’m so confused. At the moment i don’t even want to share a house with someone who can’t even be open with me and towards my feelings & now i’m worrying how to tell him this as he’s working so hard for the house It’s hard to explained myself to him without him saying stop being silly and it never been mentioned again. Part of me knows he loves me but part of me can’t understand this behavior. Maybe i worry too much!