Hi Priscilla. I can so identify with your situation and the bitterness you still feel all these years down the line! I am now sixty two years of age and still enjoying life to the full with a mixture of young and older friends. When I was fifteen I had a very special friend named Jacqueline, much prettier than I was and always the centre of attention. We enjoyed going out together and on one occasion she met the guy she eventually married. He was jelous of our close friendship and manipulated her.
I remember one Christmas I went round to her house with a present and minutes later she came back to mine with a present wrapped in the same paper.
I shall never forget how mortified I was when I opened it and found my own present returned to me and I never forgave her.
I had the opportunity of meeting her several years later when I found out her telephone number, but even then I couldn’t bring myself to phone her and when her husband died of a heart attack I still could not reach for the phone.
I also remember another girl, very much like the so called friend you mention. This one was above her station and a bit of a rebel but we were good friends. Then when I invited her to my home she made some comments about my home and it upset me to the extent that I never forgave her either. We didn’t have much money but I was happy and contented and I felt be littled by her cruel comments. Again, I found her name on facebook and I mailed her. She made out that I had been a good friend but she was still full of her own importance, having married a barrister and I pulled her down a peg or two by posting that she hadn’t done too badly for a girl who lived in rented accommodation. She blocked me immediately but I had the last laugh.
I often ask myself why all this matters so many years later, but I still question why genuinely decent people never get the respect they deserve and the selfish
horrible ones seem to get on fine.
Please see the importance of being yourself and forget about people who will never know what it is like to share true friendship or true feeling.
You are still young and bitterness is a bad thing. Happy Christmas.