Thank you all for your replies.

@Jade: “don’t be afraid to step away if the other person can’t fulfill your desires.” (BTW I don’t think you should just step away until you’ve communicated what you want to that person and given them a chance to fulfill it).

I’m afraid that’s why SHE stepped away, she thought I was just lame sexually. She felt she had given me enough opportunities. But I REALLY couldn’t fully open up to her though, because I kept thinking “how soon until you betray me?”

I NEVER should have played ANY games with her and I DEFINITELY should have COMMUNICATED…I don’t know why I didn’t…

But she REALLY was the girl of a lifetime. I’ve never met any girl before or since who was as smart, fun, funny, and who shared ALL of my interests (like video games). She could REALLY be a pleasure to be around. The only problem was the shady behavior (which I’m wondering was just cause she was young). I’ll tell you she’ll be the TOTAL PACKAGE once she learns to be faithful and not constantly looking to “trade up.”

This wouldn’t be soo hard if I could replace her, but the way things ended she won’t even talk to me anymore.

I’m never gonna have a shot at a girl like that again and then to have turned my nose up at it when I did…that’s just STUPID.